We are still adjusting to our new life. The days and weeks leading up to Christmas were filled with unknown pain and apprehension of what the day would bring. Thankfully I was able to get myself to place where Christmas was just another (Tues)day. Whether I’m with the boys or not any day can be special and that’s what Christmas Eve was. Setting aside the cares and worries of life I fully engaged with greatest gifts I’ve been given on earth, my beautiful boys.

We opened a few gifts and spent the rest of the day playing “super powers” with their new handmade capes and masks at Tristan’s command (thankfully he has enough imagination to keep us all entertained). We put together a new puzzle, baked cookies from dough a sweet friend made, ate too much candy , listened to our Christmas records and drank homemade peppermint hot cocoa.

The second half of the day was interrupted by an unfortunate visit to the dog pound, perhaps another story for another day. Then they went off to their dad’s place to spend Christmas Day. Every special occasion still for me is a chance to grow and to become more grateful for the gifts I have, letting go of what I can’t control.

Wishing Peace for all this holiday season.

Bekah & the boys