6/3 

            Today is our first full day of summer break. I’d be lying if I said my nervousness didn’t equal my excitement. It takes several weeks for the boys to adjust back to life full time together that makes it especially hard around here.

It’s been an interesting season of reflection and tackling old projects. Almost as if I’m subconsciously pushing out the old to make room for…? More good.
A friend sent me this article this morning and I’m overwhelmed by how accurate it explains what I’ve been learning over the past few years. Not a popular topic but something I think should be talked about more. Personality disorders and relational abuse. I wish I was better at articulating these things but feel grateful for the people who do and do it well. I’m planing on making a list of books and resources that have helped me learn to identify unhealthy relationship patterns. The least I can do is pass on what’s helped me understand myself and those around me better because I know I’m not alone in this. Truth is I’ve grown into adulthood believing what I feel and need isn’t important only meeting the desires of others is. So not only learning to say “no” learning when I WANT to say “no”. Identifying my basic needs and desires has been one of the biggest challenges I’ve faced. Such irony!

This week I’ve been taking the goats to the woods to forage since my fence doesn’t reach all the way back. It’s been so eye opening to sit there with my quilting and watch them mow through the brush while the boys swing on the wild vines. As I sat in the shade with a spoon and half a watermelon the other day I was overwhelmed by what surrounded. My yard is beautiful with the most peaceful view and at least half a dozen large shade trees. A beautiful small brick home that rents about the same as a one bedroom appartment in the city. Life isn’t easy and more often than not I heap more work on myself than necessary but man we’re so blessed. Seeking to truly embrace all this beauty and let my heart settle here.

10 thoughts on “6/3 

  1. you exude a quiet strength that is inspiring. i love coming to this space to find honest words, along with hope and sincere gratitude. the simple anecdote about your week in the woods, watching the goats as you quilt and your sons play in nature captures it all. blessed indeed. 🙂

  2. Words from your shared article “Human beings are designed by nature to avoid pain. We only hurt ourselves and others when we are already hurting”.. evolution makes humans to feel less, cause the spirit world is shriveling and leaving space for material world. People becoming more mashines than living beings and this is not about the fighting for the place under the sun. People do not use brains anymore, they can’t feel with the six sence, but once a long time ago humans had telepatic abilities. There was no schools, but they understood everything more clearly and deeply…
    Do not stop to wonder nature, beautiful woods and her guests 😉

  3. Thank you for sharing 🙂

    I’ve had a lot of views because of your share. It’s something I wrote while figuring out my own journey and trying to learn from it.

    Trust yourself, and your path.

  4. Oh isn’t Women Who Run With the Wolves just wonderful? You’re a kind, strong, brave soul, Bekah. I hope you enjoy the reading.

    May I recommend a few other books (in a similar vein) that I’ve helped me in the journey of healing, emotional wisdom, and learning about relationships more?
    – Intimacy & Solitude by Stephanie Dowrick
    – How to Be An Adult in Relationships (don’t judge it by the title, it’s fantastic) by David Richo
    – Transcending Loss: Understanding the Life-Long Impact of Grief and How to Make it Meaningful by Ashley David Bush (one of the best books I’ve read)
    – If the Buddha Married (it isn’t written just for Buddhists) by Charlotte Kasl
    – Anatomy of The Spirit by Caroline Myss
    – Emotional Alchemy by Tara Bennett Goleman
    – You Can Heal Your Life by Louise Hay
    – Insight Dialogue by Gregory Kramer
    – All About Love by bell hooks

    love and strength, xo

  5. I just found your blog via pinterest and I am so glad I did! Your photography is beautiful and I love all your posts I’ve read so far; you seem to live a peaceful, real, down-to-earth life. Thanks for sharing it with the world 🙂

    I’m always trying to get better at photography, and I just started a wordpress with some of my stuff on it. If you ever have a chance to take a look at my blog, i’d love any and all of your feeback. What kind of lense do you use? I love the depth of field that you get.

  6. Hey.
    I stumbled upon your incredibly encouraging website. The article was accurate to the T of who I am with.

    I’m going to be honest.
    I am separating my husband, as of yesterday.

    He is abusive and I am done and fearful for our kids.
    We have two boys, 3 and 1.

    Would you email me?
    Steps you took. Things I need to watch for. How do I make this transition?
    Thanks, Miranda

  7. Bekah, I was just catching up on your blog and wanted to thank you. Thanks for creating a really raw space on here, filled with honesty. It is super encouraging. Also, you make me miss Louisville! I hope you had a really awesome, social media-free summer.

    Perrin

  8. Wow, I was bawling! Great post. Thank you for sharing! It really is a good reminder to thank God every day for what he has given us! I just wrote something similar on my blog 3boys2girlsblog.com but you said it so perfectly!

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