3/29

  
Reflecting this week on the changes I’ve made in my life and the ones I’m still aiming to achieve. 

My decision to pull away from most forms of social media was by far the best thing. I don’t regret it for a second and while most people assume I’ll come back to those places I don’t see it happening. I feel so much better and free without them. 

So my question to myself this week was why I came back here. I honestly don’t fully know. Having a place to put my art is part of it. I found all these images building up that represent the beauty of life and had nowhere and nothing to do with them. I also think there’s something still left unsaid. Thoughts to be shared and books to recommend. I’ve seen so much of the impact passing along even little bits of wisdom can have on the quality of life as well as being the recipient of such thoughtfulness. There’s an element of that I don’t want to take away from the people who still come here for inspiration. I want to share what I’ve learned. 

For now, I hope whoever reads these words visually or audibly there’s solace and encouragement found. 

Till then. 

3/21

  
    
 Suffering – 

pain, humiliation, sickness and failure – 

is but a kiss of Jesus.
Once I met a lady who had a terrible cancer,

She was suffering so much.

I told her,

     “Now you come so close to Jesus on the cross

       that he is kissing you.”

Then she joined hands and said,

     “Mother Teresa,

      please tell Jesus to stop kissing me.”

It was so beautiful.

She understood.
Suffering is a gift of God

a gift that makes us most Christlike.

People must not accept suffering as a punishment.
Anyone who imitates Jesus to the full

must also share in his passion.
We must have the courage

to pray to have the courage to accept.

Because we do not pray enough, we see only the

      human part.

We don’t see the divine.

And we resent it.
I think that much of the misunderstanding of suffering

      today

      comes from that

      from resentment and bitterness.

Bitterness is an infectious disease

      a cancer

      an anger hidden inside.
Suffering is meant to purify

      to sanctify

      to make us Christlike.
                                                                      – Mother Teresa

3/14

Monday / green grass

Tuesday / blue skys

Wednesday / Work

Thursday / new pieces

Friday / Peter Pan with best friends

Saturday / treats

Sunday / just sunday

2/5 with Briggs & Riley

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I took a trip to New Mexico over Christmas, traveling with Briggs & Riley luggage, for a photo project with my brother and photographer, Andy Johnson III. This series of photos showcases my experience with top-of-the-line Briggs & Riley luggage that embodies a sense of ease and class.

One of my favorite features of the luggage is a compression technique that makes it easier to pack more items into a smaller suitcase. This eliminates the need for carrying extra bags and makes packing snow gear easy. I always aim to travel as light as possible no matter how long or multifaceted the trip is that I’m taking. During my packing process I put together pieces that are easily interchangeable. After I’ve narrowed it down to the basics I step away for a bit and come back with a clear mind and simplify it once more to about half what I originally planned to pack.

One thing I’ve realized in all my travels its that I’ve never under-packed (unless you include forgetting my bathing suit). Even with goggles, gloves, snow pants and hats I was able to feel light as I boarded each flight with my Briggs & Riley luggage. Using the backpack that comes with the set made it easy to navigate and replaced my need for a purse on the trip. I used it to carry my valuables as we explored New Mexico and snowboarded in Taos.

Traveling never goes the way you plan. Being flexible and viewing things with a sense of adventure is key. I never would have believed if you told me that I would leave home in 70 degree weather to get snowed in while in the southwest. Waiting out the blizzard enabled us to spend an extra two days in Santa Fe, which I absolutely fell in love with, even though we had to forgo some of our other travel plans. My silver lining is feeling myself being pulled back for another visit to New Mexico and hopefully very soon.

Photos by Andy Johnson
Web: JustAndy.com
IG & Twitter: @justAndyPhoto

6/4

   
I’m laying on a blanket in the shade. A yellow finch is singing right above my head and a hummingbird flying from bloom to bloom. The boys are catching tadpoles in the lake. The breeze is slight and calming. I spent the morning making eucalyptus garlands for a friend. Everything feels calm and perfect and I don’t want to miss a thing. Both boys will be in school the end of summer and it’s been on my heart to take a break again for the summer from social media and posting. Harder than it should be to break away from the habits we find ourselves in isn’t it? But that’s what I want and the freedom that comes with it. We don’t have any big plans this summer and I’m not obligated to anyone. I want to spend the summer focusing on my parenting and developing a better base for who I want to be as a mother and learning to care for myself better as well. 

With beauty and grace,

Bekah

6/3 

            Today is our first full day of summer break. I’d be lying if I said my nervousness didn’t equal my excitement. It takes several weeks for the boys to adjust back to life full time together that makes it especially hard around here.

It’s been an interesting season of reflection and tackling old projects. Almost as if I’m subconsciously pushing out the old to make room for…? More good.
A friend sent me this article this morning and I’m overwhelmed by how accurate it explains what I’ve been learning over the past few years. Not a popular topic but something I think should be talked about more. Personality disorders and relational abuse. I wish I was better at articulating these things but feel grateful for the people who do and do it well. I’m planing on making a list of books and resources that have helped me learn to identify unhealthy relationship patterns. The least I can do is pass on what’s helped me understand myself and those around me better because I know I’m not alone in this. Truth is I’ve grown into adulthood believing what I feel and need isn’t important only meeting the desires of others is. So not only learning to say “no” learning when I WANT to say “no”. Identifying my basic needs and desires has been one of the biggest challenges I’ve faced. Such irony!

This week I’ve been taking the goats to the woods to forage since my fence doesn’t reach all the way back. It’s been so eye opening to sit there with my quilting and watch them mow through the brush while the boys swing on the wild vines. As I sat in the shade with a spoon and half a watermelon the other day I was overwhelmed by what surrounded. My yard is beautiful with the most peaceful view and at least half a dozen large shade trees. A beautiful small brick home that rents about the same as a one bedroom appartment in the city. Life isn’t easy and more often than not I heap more work on myself than necessary but man we’re so blessed. Seeking to truly embrace all this beauty and let my heart settle here.